UPDATE!!!

Wow! Its been a minute since i've written on this here blogger. It feels good to be back and to write!

Some good news..I've FINALLY graduated college from Georgia State University with a BS in Human Resource Policy!!

In the Fall 2010 I was interning in the HR Department and they loved my work ethic so much that they hired me full time, so starting Tuesday, January 4, 2010, I will be working at Georgia State. Some great things come with this jobs like getting a free education, so UGA here I come to complete my Masters!!

So, I ended the year with a bang and now I am just excited for what the Lord has in store for me this year! I vow to continue to trust in the Lord in everything that I do and to stay positive, healthy and kind!

More good news to come!! Lets gooooo!!!!!!!

a heart that yearns for...

Yesterday in our prayer meeting I had such a beautiful time with the Lord. For the first time in a long time my heart was actually connected with the Lords heart. I worshipped Him as if it was only me and Him in the room and i interceded on behalf of His lost sheep. He saw me and i saw him i felt our hearts beating as one...oh greater glory come...

My heart yearns for His Glory and that it may come down and engulf His lost and even His sheep that know His voice. What will happen when this thick cloud of glory falls and takes over all that we are??? An awakening of love. The lost being called back to the Father... Identity and all types of healings.

Lord may your Glory descend upon us...

The Lord is so desperate for us. He wants to pour out every inch of who He is on us. As well as show us His love. As He imparts supernaturally the same love that He has for His Son in us- we become transformed! To love the Father the way the Father loves the Righteous Son, is his desire.. so amazing...

I can imagine it and its not far off.

He wants to show us his love. He wants to give us His love. He wants us to know that we are Always on His mind....O fill me, fill us with the knowledge of your love Lord and Glory...

Friends...

I love my friends...I received a call late last night from one of my oldest and dearest friends in the whole wide world and she looked over my recent few blog posts and she became worried hence the call. Thanks for caring Fadela, but i am OK!!!

Its good to have people who care in your life...thank you Lord!

{New Phase} Identity:: Song of Songs

i am excited to say that i have ended a phase and im beginning a new one....(i am swiftly moving)...i will briefly give a description of the phases i have been on and have accomplished by the grace of the Lord along with the one i am embarking on...

Phase 1. Crossing Bridges

this phase was basically me taking that first step into new territory even with no clue of what to expect or what i would encounter along the way. Here is where faith was activated and obedience was strengthened (day by day its being strengthened-my prayer). This was the hardest part, but the rewards that i have gained made it all worth it.

Phase 2. The Uncovering

this was the phase where the Light of God shined on all dark places in my life and removed them so that i could see 1. who God really is 2. the love of God 3. How he looks and sees me. This phase was a beautiful phase because he encountered me and i met him for the very first time! its crazy i know because i have been saved for quite a few years 10 being exact, but the Lord couldn't of introduced himself to me at a more perfect time so i am so grateful. This phase was not only him revealing his true nature but purging all my crap to the service so that he could deal with them. I will admit he is not finished, so i believe he will continue to work, purge, destroy and restore in this next phase on this journey in my life.

Phase 3. Identity - Song of Songs...

This is the phase where he outpours and reveals my identity as his bride and daughter all wrapped in the arms of love. in this phase there are many different processes that i will be going through, but i want it. I want to know my worth in the love of God. I know there will be more encounters, secrets shared between me and God, me chasing after him and him calling me to him, my heart being awakened, more purging and so much more things that i will blog about as they happen.

I am his beloved and he is mine...so here goes to this next part of this journey where identity is imparted and sealed all in the blood of the Lamb...

whooooo hooooooo!!!!!!!

Decisions...

i have no idea what to do! I am contemplating on cutting my hair real short but if i cut my hair i should just go natural (cutting off all relaxed hair). Idk what to do - i am scared to see what my natural hair looks like...

what to do? what to do?

after taking a general poll from friends i have decided to just keep my hair short!

so will post pics this week on the new cut...

.:::take it all:::.

i wrote a song on April 21, 2008 - for the same reason of what i am going through now (will it ever end?!?). although this song has deeper meaning to me now because by relinquishing all of me he can impart his desire and bring me to a place of peace and rest in his presence.

"take it all"

i give you my wants and all my desires

if it means i can dwell in your presence

all of my hopes and all of my dreams

cares and needs

it yours...

you can have it all

if it means i can dwell in your presence forever

i will lay all of me before you

you can have it all

i give you my heart and all it holds close

if it means i can dwell in your presence

i've counted the costs, i count it all lost

all i want

is you...

you can have it all

if it means i can dwell in your presence forever

i will lay all of me before you

you can have it all

take it all

i dont want it anymore

take it all

i just want to be with you

in your presence

{Find Rest}

inhale. exhale. rest.

i had an eye awakening experience yesterday while talking to a friend. i realized that i dont trust the Lord to take care of my heart. the lord knows the best way - he knows me inside and out. he knows how many hairs i have on my head. he knows my hearts desires and the struggles that i have. he knows me.

i almost feel numb - wanting him to overtake me with his presence. i want to feel him. i want him to touch me so that i know he has everything taken care of. i feel quite weird saying that i need to be reassured. i want to see what is over this mountain. i want to see my heart be free from all types of bondages. i want to find rest in him as he deals with my heart. take my heart.

it is so funny because holding onto this desire is so stressful, tiring and too much for me to carry. so i ask myself why wont i just give it to him so that he can do what he wants to do with it. he is a God who can do anything. i just want him to heal my heart fully. i dont want to have to worry or stress about anything especially my hearts desire. o how i desire his heart and what he desires for me. his plan and will for my life is so much greater than i could ever imagine. i just want to let go of it all and have the greatest faith and hope that he has it all worked out - even if its not what i thought i wanted.

teach me how to trust. teach me how to lean. teach me how to sing when i am broken. teach me how to just rest in you. find rest.