{Perfect Love}

walking away from a place of darkness and entering into a place of liberty::freedom::justice::promise - i encounter something that i have forgotten and lost.

His Perfect Love.

so many trials and tribulations are here to mature me, so they will forever be continuing in my life. the trials hurt. they bruise::leave scares - and as i move forward from these trials i am left still believing and knowing, God knows best. in all this there is one thing that remains to be true and that is these obstacles bring me closer to the revelation of who God really is.

He is Perfect.

i close my eyes and i begin to remember all the great miracles he's done in my life, and conversations that we've had. the number one miracle being that he saved me. he saved me from a life of destruction and darkness. the light has come and forever he will stay. he will bring his people into the marvelous light of who he really is.

He is Love.

i am wrapped in arms of love. everlasting love. redeeming love. restoring love. healing love. faithful love. resurrecting love. present time love. joyful love. graceful love. merciful love. beautiful love.

His Perfect Love is everywhere.

First Step!!!!!!!!!

As i take my first step on the bridge i eagerly wait to see what awaits me at the end, many emotions and thoughts come over me. But in the midst of it, all i can say is...

I trust in You!!

This is not going to be an easy journey. I have no idea what awaits, but i believe the hard part is done. I took the first step...and all i know is...

"Nothing is impossible for you Jesus, You hold my world in your hands"!!!

So here I go! First step taken! Many more steps to go! But in all of this i trust in the Lord, for my life is in his hands and his alone!

Happy Journey!!!!

Welcome to the 21st Century...

i am almost ashamed to say, but excited the same, that i am new to having the ability to taking pictures on my cell phone and being able to send them to others. I know, I know. i am so far behind, but its true, i am a newby to this world of technology!! My old phone wasnt capable so i didnt mind, but my father just bought me the new Blackberry Tour and i love it! It can do sooooo much and i am amazed that i didnt care to know about the endless possiblities that a single phone can have....

Here are a few shots (bordom.testing. excited) so take a look below.

Day one of pics...

looking forward to what is ahead,

k.

its been a long while...

Whoaaaa!! Its been a long time since I have sat in this chair to write my thoughts and what is going on around me.

Its October. The year is almost over and what do I have to show for it????

Family!

My Sister, Sis

My BFF, Yannick

My Chief, Brittany

My love, Neno Pryo

My Oldest Friend, Fadela

The Psalmist, Damo

A Ray of Sunshine, Chrystel

My Ace, Joyce

My Sweetikins, Maygo

My Brother, Juan

My family is great! They love unconditionally and will always, always love me! The shoulder that always has those big wet stains from tears, or the continuous yawning because they have stayed up all night the night before, because they were on the phone with me...

priceless....

Thanks to ALL my brothers and sisters, know that I am praying for you all...


xoxoxoxoo

Get UPPPPPP!!!

Get up! Wake up! This life doesnt wait for you!!!


GETTTTT UPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!

Selah.

The sounds....

Something is definitely different. I cannot describe it...but the presence and beauty of God is all around me!!! Intercession...is more real to me and i am understanding every aspect of it...especially the part of it being a must to know the Holy Spirit...

I am excited...I am elated...its all indescribable.

Lord, May your will be done in my life the exact way it is in heaven. I thank and love you!!!

K.

Revelation....

The greatest desire of my life is walk in tune with the Holy Spirit, to be able to just get on my Threshing Floor and he just make his presence known to me instantly....oooo how i long for the day. The day when intercession and prophetic intercession is just something that i am...not what i do.

I have been reading a lot of material lately about intercession and what it is and its a lot to take in. The responsibility. The dedication. Everything about it...is just a lot and it overwhelms me all the time just thinking about it...

until today...

I was reading an article about Prophetic Intercession (something that I haven't even come close to tapping into...still trying to get to the place of just intercession) by Les D. Crause and something he said just changed my whole perspective on me and intercession...although it is still a lot of work my main objective is to just get to the thrown room...nothing more nothing less...

How?...

Through my worship and praise...

Once I have entered the Thrown Room and I am at his feet it is there where i can sit and wait for instruction from the Lord. The most exciting part is this...I come to him waiting for instruction...the Holy Spirit will then lead me the whole way through in intercession...I am not doing a thing...but being obedient and praying for what he wants me to pray for...Now i know the tasks and the missions that he will lead me to pray for. It wont be easy, but a lot of work...but once i get there...to his thrown room, sit and wait...he will do the rest...!

So now i am not as overwhelmed with all that intercession entails. If i get the obedience lifestyle down, walking upright with the King, and mainly knowing and spending time with the Holy Spirit than that right there is what is needed for my ministry of intercession....

*sigh* of relief...

thats life...

The walls are closing in and things all around me are falling apart. The things that i once depended upon are no longer secure. The cares that people have are finally catching up with me. What can i say...i lived almost 26 years on this planet without a care in this world...and now that is coming to an end.

Time to face reality. Time to face the real world. Time to grow up. Time be weened off of what once secured me. It is a little scary I must admit because of course this is all new to me... Its is funny because i can so clearly hear the voice of my father telling me what to do...and i didn't. I am paying for it now. I try not to live with regrets...but regrets i have. But i also sit back and am grateful knowing and hoping that my great King is going to make a masterpiece out of the mess that i have made.

Doubt??? I don't got time for that. right now all i can have is faith...because i don't know what is going on...Right now i am just looking to God....

This is life. my life.

No Greater Place

There is no place greater than resting in the presence of God. Being filled, restored, healed, corrected all in the place of His presence. It is the wierdest thing because light bulbs are going off like crazy...all around me, and i am seeing clearly through what used to be a muggy glass...

I'm resting in His Presence. There is no greater place.

No words. Just Peace. Its His presence.

I'm enthralled by all that He is. He is doing something so great. I don't know what it is...but an expectancy for something that I will never be able to grasp...is at the brink.

My cries continue to lift up for my brothers and sisters, for my family, and for this generation. In battle I stand with the focus of bringing destruction to the kingdom of darkness is priority.

And in the stillness of His peace, and the rejuvenating strength given by His touch is where you will find me...In His Presence...

{A Stirring}

Theres a stirring in my spirit...
A breaking of something ready to come forth...
The presence of God is present all around me...at this moment
Fresh. Revitatilizng. Heavy. Breathtaking.
In awe of who He is...is where i am right now.
I dont have to say much...
But a shout of praise cannot be held back...
For the God i serve is awesome and worthy of all that is inside of me.
I am awaiting the Prophectic words to come to pass...and I will not give him rest...

xx

heart.::of::.words

"now unto the lamb who sits on the thrown
all of creation resounds with the song
worship and praise..." ~ brooke fraser

One of my greatest passions is to write the most beautiful love songs to God.

Songs that move his heart and capture the essence of who he is.

I often sit and think about different artists and their style of writing and

what moves them to write a particular song.

I am impressed with the words that they choose...

And what makes them write what they write...i cant quite explain it...but

a beautiful song is not just about the lyrics...at least not to me.

Although i am a lover of words

and am amazed at how psalmists can write breathtaking, convicting, mind evolving lyrics, theres still more to it....so much more!

Its about the heart that goes into writing the song.

Anyone can put a bunch of meaningless words on paper to create a song

that can captivate the minds of many, (look at the industry today (secular))

but...

The song that has the stains of tears and blood from the aches of a bleeding heart

for the one who can dry all eyes and heal all wounds is

the song that inspires the very soul inside of us to go against the grain and live a life

full of greatness that is found in the very arms of our Lord.

Or,

The song that just invites your spirit and draws you to a place of praise and worship.

Its the heart of words.

The heart is what goes into those words.

It makes up the very lyrics that can heal, renew, worship and love.

Sometimes a song can even be just the song unsung.

The song without the lyrics.

The sounds of moaning and cries that are lifted up before God,

the heart of our tears...

Nonetheless, he hears our hearts, deep within the lyrics we write.

He hears it..

Even in the tears or the shattering sounds of a broken heart

He hears it..

He hears our hearts, embedded in the words written, which make the very songs

that i pray moves his heart

When God Speaks...

When God speaks, will you move? I hope so.
Because by not moving your not only be disobedient, but your not believing. why is it so hard to believe? Why is it so hard to trust? Has he disappointed before? No. Then what is the problem????
Stepping out on faith can be so scary because your chartering new grounds, but if you press and believe where he is taking you, then the fear will go away....no matter what your eyes see...

Do you know the voice of God? Can you distinguish it? I hope so.
Because by not knowing the voice of God, you will be lead astray into all different places where you do not belong. Is he even near and speaking to you ? Where do you belong? With him. So whats the problem?
Spending time with the greatest gift ever given...the holy spirit...and once you learn his voice, you will never be lead astray...but it requires a great level of obedience...so sit, wait and learn his voice...

When God shifts will you shift too? i hope so.
By not staying connected to the spirit and not shifting, you will be left behind...so why don't you shift? Why are you not connected? For so many different reasons. You get so caught up with the activities and things of this world. Do we not know that this world cant bring us into eternity and all that it holds wont lead us there? We have no clue yet, but God is what we want. So whats the problem?
Knowing and understanding that God is all that we will ever need in this lifetime and the next will keep our ear gripped to the very heartbeat of God. We will be able to hear the words...decipher them and get instruction out of it...because at that moment his heart is ours. it beats the same beat. at the same speed. we are one.

so what is the problem??

we aren't willing to change and become who God has called us to be...

growth on the narrow pt.2

ma⋅tu⋅ri⋅ty 
 /məˈtʃʊərɪti, -ˈtʊər-, -ˈtyʊər-, -ˈtʃɜr-/ Show Spelled Pronunciation [muh-choor-i-tee, -toor-, -tyoor-, -chur-] Show IPA Pronunciation
–noun
1.
the state of being mature; ripeness: The fruit will reach maturity in a few days.
2.
full development; perfected condition: maturity of judgment; to bring a plan to maturity.



how long will i be like this? like a child? when does one mature in spritual matters?

WHEN????

one of my biggest fears is that i will stay like this forever and miss the promises of God.

how does one miss the promises of God? not maturing...that is how.

how many times must one go through the same lesson? hah! until one gets it right!!!

how many times can one person make the same mistakes?

wisdom is given. counsel is given. the heart must be pliable. and eager. is my heart eager?

the character...lets not get on the character...

the birth in the spirit is coming up...and i just dont know...will i be ready? will i be birthed? or will i die here?

O lord hear my heart in this prayer,

i need a heart transplant.

in jesus name, amen.

{the narrow...pt 1}

being a new creature in christ is a wonderful, foreign and exciting thing and a journey that never ever stops...



being a new creature means that you no longer depend upon the things of the world, but christ. being assured that he has your best interest at heart and knowing that he is able to do anything. he is perfect in all his ways. he is faithful, even when we are not. he gives grace. he is just indescribeable.

the way he loves us is just without words. he sees so much in us, even when we cannot. he protects and teaches us throughout the day and chastises when we have done wrong...

thank you lord for who you are!

A New Year

A new year. A new day. New promises. New expectations. New hope for the what was promised.

All these things new, but there is One that never changes and stays the same...always.

I love you Jesus!!!!!!