growth on the narrow pt.2

ma⋅tu⋅ri⋅ty 
 /məˈtʃʊərɪti, -ˈtʊər-, -ˈtyʊər-, -ˈtʃɜr-/ Show Spelled Pronunciation [muh-choor-i-tee, -toor-, -tyoor-, -chur-] Show IPA Pronunciation
–noun
1.
the state of being mature; ripeness: The fruit will reach maturity in a few days.
2.
full development; perfected condition: maturity of judgment; to bring a plan to maturity.



how long will i be like this? like a child? when does one mature in spritual matters?

WHEN????

one of my biggest fears is that i will stay like this forever and miss the promises of God.

how does one miss the promises of God? not maturing...that is how.

how many times must one go through the same lesson? hah! until one gets it right!!!

how many times can one person make the same mistakes?

wisdom is given. counsel is given. the heart must be pliable. and eager. is my heart eager?

the character...lets not get on the character...

the birth in the spirit is coming up...and i just dont know...will i be ready? will i be birthed? or will i die here?

O lord hear my heart in this prayer,

i need a heart transplant.

in jesus name, amen.

{the narrow...pt 1}

being a new creature in christ is a wonderful, foreign and exciting thing and a journey that never ever stops...



being a new creature means that you no longer depend upon the things of the world, but christ. being assured that he has your best interest at heart and knowing that he is able to do anything. he is perfect in all his ways. he is faithful, even when we are not. he gives grace. he is just indescribeable.

the way he loves us is just without words. he sees so much in us, even when we cannot. he protects and teaches us throughout the day and chastises when we have done wrong...

thank you lord for who you are!

A New Year

A new year. A new day. New promises. New expectations. New hope for the what was promised.

All these things new, but there is One that never changes and stays the same...always.

I love you Jesus!!!!!!

{closure}

i think its finally here! the end of a chapter has come and excitement for the next one to be written is overtaking me!

its gone! its finally gone! it took a while, but it has come. the healing has come! it came in a strange way, but hey i am not complaining.

my Lord is faithful and i never doubted him for one second.

I just had to believe!!!!

xx

my bestfriend, my blackberry...

I just want to first off thank the inventors of the. blackberry. It is the most innovative device ever made and it has saved my life...

Not in the same way that Jesus has of course, but the phone does any and. everything...and i absolutely adore it. I first became a BlackBerry fan in March of 07 and it was the greatest decision i could of evermade...it keeps me organized, connected, and it just keeps my life in order...i know that it is crazy that i am writing about a phone, but the phone if you know how to use it can help your life stay structured..

Let me just note about the day that my best friend, my BB (her name) got lost...

it happened about three weeks ago, my sister came to my job so that i could give her something and as i went to the car window i placed my best friend, my BB on the top of the car. I know what you may be thinking...how could i just single handily leave my best friend on the top of a car...and i don't know how i could of done such a thing...but i did.. so later that evening about 5 minutes later my sister calls and says do you have your phone? and i didn't so i replied to her no. She said well it was on the top of the car and i saw it fly off, hit the ground, shatter to pieces...and to top it off she said she saw a car run over it...

My beloved sister turned around to see if she could find it but it was no where in sight...so at the moment i felt my life just crumble because my best friend, my BB, was dead! But i pulled myself together and made the call to Sprint to get me a new phone and fast...ooo and big ups to Sprint, my phone carrier...they sent me a phone the very next day...at no extra charge...

Gladly, i back up regularly so all i had too was just hook it up to my Vaio and boom all my info was back on my phone...

The phone that I have now isn't like my old friend, my best friend, BB...we had history, we been through a lot...a lot of tears, arguments, laughter, rebukes...so much...but now i am looking forward to making new memories and enjoying the time with my new blackberry....while we are together...

I know this is a random blog...but my bestfriend, my Blackberry...well the phone deserves one!!!

the fight for healing...

its not gone...

i thought it was gone. the feeling of wanting to touch his hand or to hear his voice which was a sweet melody to my ear. but its not. o how i desperately want it to be gone. to be removed, taken away. surgically or even by a miracle. it doesn't matter the way its removed...i just want it gone.

he is sick and i want to be there for him so bad, but i cant. I want to let him know that it will be okay, but i cant. so many restraints...good restraints...needed restraints. there was a past full of love and friendship, but now the love must die.

the truth of the matter is... i just miss my friend.

how can you be there for a friend when its not allowed?

Prayer.

So i will continue to lift him up in prayer...that is all i have to give...

I will fight for his health because that is what friends do and i know with the same intensity and passion he would do the same for me...so as i go before the Lord of Hosts, for a friend, i will believe in his healing. I will stand in faith...and as i cover my friend through faith....may the Lord heal me in the process...

"nothing is impossible for you, nothing is impossible...."

the Fall.

The fall is here!!! i love the fall...the beautiful colors of the leaves...the breezy weather. the fresh air...ahhh its great!!